so what should’ve been a hugely happy day yesterday in reality turned shit
today„ recovery day„, i should feel terrible. but i’m good. wake early to friends texts and then„, another text came through and expecting it to be who i was already texting and its dream girl asking me out for a drink.
sooooo„„ suck it up. just cos i gave up. someone this perfect i’m not meant to pass up. seriously„
i keep saying i’m gonna pinch her. she’s not real.
hurt or no hurt. i’d be stupid to run from a dream.
RAR RAR Black sheep you’re so full of bull
Yes sir yes sir three bags of choof
One for you master„ another cos you’re a dame„,
And one cos you’re not afraid to call fag a spade.
What do you call this?
One hella way to announce your fears
Who thinks you’re not what we’ve found here
Who thinks you’re NOT parading queer?
Or do you just find it easier to denounce your peers?
under estimating myself if i think she’s outta my league? fuck it. a TOTAL babe. talented. intelligent. worldly. independent. musician. artist. lives ten minutes from me. AND rides„, no wait„ customizes motorbikes!!
nah„, pinch me„, somethings gotta be wrong„ this will not go anywhere but a band room i bet… fuck.
wonder if i’ll ever post my vocals… i made a audio recording of me singing it last night. two days obsessing over this track but i think i’ve got it down pretty well so far.. fuck i need more balls when it comes to vocal I AM A SINGER dammit. fuck.
(i did actually go to upload it last night but was too big)
(and it did sit someone in silence after i played it for them…)
no no… i just figured why such a down day„ and aha! hazzah! she’s weirdly MUCH happier now!
now„, am showered„, shall try on new jeans„ jump on motorbike„, possibly a little retail therapy - fuck yeah to new undies„, and maybe a trek to the beach if i’m confident… oh and to eat copious amounts of chocolate sooo„ ummm„, acland street cake shops? oooohhhhhh. Na’NOM.
“There musta been a trigger that started it
There’s gotta be a trigger to stop it
But how do you unteach what has become so common
Find another trigger to offset on knowledge?
Or find what you consider content in courage…”—lahlia